I don’t even know how to start, I’m really sad and i know it is my fault, i’m sorry if it’s a long read i need advise please bear with me.
When i was still single at age 29, I left a relationship that turned out be a mistake so it took time before i met someone else, at age 31 I noticed changes in my period (one month off, one month on) it has never happened to me before so i didnt take it to be anything, then it started skipping 2 months at a roll, then 3 months, i became worried cos i wasn’t sexualy active at all. During this period i met my husband and we started something serious, to be on a safe side i went to see the doctor, he said i was fine that it’s hormonal changes, he gave me some drugs (mostly vitamins) but it was still skipping, when my husband proposed, i went back to the doctor, he did series of tests, when results came out he said i’m having symptoms of POF, i was shocked, i cried and cried cos it’s unheard of for someone my age, i told him i’m about to get married what can i do he said i should start taking hormonal injections since it’s too early to be POF, i started taking it and praying all will be fine, all this while i didnt say a word of this to my husband to be or anyone else, then we got married, i took in immediately, it was the happiest day of my life, when we discovered it was triplets i cried tears of joy to the extent that my husband wondered why i was soo happy, i gave birth to 2 boys and a girl, i really thank God for his faithfulness cos i was soo nervous during the pregnancy.
My period was still skipping, then this year march it stopped completely, i went to see 2 different doctors to be sure, they confirmed i have POF (early menopause), i cried and still thank God cos he blessed me with the fruit of the womb but i couldnt bring myself to tell my husband, then he started noticing i dont buy sanitary pad anymore, he asked thinking i was pregnant i always tell him no, at a point he had to ask me if i want to make the pregnancy a surprise, that was when i knew it’s time to tell him the truth, i knelt down and told him everything, i held nothing back, he was shocked that i could do something like that to him, he said i should have told him before we got married, i told him he wouldnt have married me if i told him, he was angry, he said what if the hormonal injections didnt work, it was an expensive and wicked gamble, i told him it worked that’s what matters now, he abused me and walked out of the house, he didnt come home till the next day, since then things have never been the same.
He hardly talks to me except when necessary, we dont gist and joke anymore, i always beg and beg him, he says he’s forgiven me but he goes back to his moody self, we hardly make love anymore, when he finally does, he doesnt look at my face, now he wants me to quit my job so i’ll have my full attention on the kids, recently we had a fight about it and i told him point blank i cant quit my job the kids are fine he said i must do that, he doesnt want anything happening to them since i’m no more fertile, who says that? I cried my eyes out that night, It’s not my fault nature took it’s course on me, i never imagined something like this would ever happen to me.
Now he doesn’t talk to me at all anymore, i’m about to tell both our families everything cos i’ve begged and begged him and i’m tired, i want anonymous advise that’s why i’m here, please please married men and women or whoever, how do i go about this?